WITHIN THE LAST WEEK: concussions, UTI, behavioral issues, ADHD, falling off bikes, beating each other up, screaming, bad words, doctor visits, counseling visits, school work, church.  Im hoping for a better week.
Avery has started taking lithium. I saw her mood change yesterday but I think it was just a fluke, as the meds have surely not started working already. Blood draw saturday and then will increase the dose, then another blood draw to see if wear at the right level yet. Then another 3-4 weeks before we actually see a change. this game is not fun at all.

life here sucks

wow all I can say is life in this household is horrible right now. Avery is psychotic and only going to get worse as we remove another medication & start a new one over the next two weeks. Lord please get us through this without another hospital visit. I'm still paying on the last one. I can't handle this. We have to find a way to keep her and I both away from the hospital.
I hate being so negative  but there really is no positive here right now.

September

We are leaving tonight to Tom's parents house where we haven't visited since Christmas. Tom took a vacation day and he took the kids to school. I need to go work out but really just want to crawl back into bed.



This week has been interesting to say the least. I had a photo shoot yesterday in the studio, that was great. It feels good to work. Funny thing is I'm not getting paid but I'm paying someone else. Wow, I never knew life would come to this. So desperate to work that I'm working for free!! Praying that God will reveal his plan to me sooner than later. I know I'm doing the right thing.



I've been cutting back on caffine the last few days. Today I have none. Yesterday 1 coffee and 1 fountain drink. Water is on the top of the list of needs right now. If my brain would cooperate I would drink a whole lot more of it. Im so tired.

Tuesday in August

Ok, today I went back to the gym after 2 months of being lazy, (been there 3 times in 2 months). It was good.

We got up this morning and rushed around only to get to school by 7:34. I said the kids, "we are too early lets sit in the car for a minute". Being early for school is appearantly way cooler than sitting in the mini van with mom at the front door. The kids hustled inside and said goodbye. It was nice to get an early start to the day I guess. I wonder what the temp is in Zambia today.

Off to do some housewifey work!

I have decided to start writing in the blog again. Maybe this time I can get serious and actually update it more than every other two years. This blog was originally about my 'biking" journey but it has taken a more personal turn.

Since I got the bike in 2009 I have put miles on it, I still love it, but i've found a new hobby. I started working out at the gym in February. It has done amazing things for me and my body. I have been slacking off since end of June and its time to go back. Wow I really like to eat in the summer!!

So Raven started Kindergarten this year so I'm alone in the day. I am a little lost and confused sometimes but I know God has a calling for me. Things with the photo business are really pulling together and with the help of good friends, it will be a growing business. This makes me more than excited! I haven't worked in a studio in about 7 years. The first day back it was like going to Disneyland, then I spent 5 hours on the computer editing!! LOL

monday 9-14

Weekend was good, the girls were very well behaved on Sat at the football party. Tom stayed home and we went up to burwell. Now we have a busy week, back to Monday Judo, Wed church, preschool tue/thurs. And getting ready for greeley irish festival this week!!! Oh and Salad & silver!!! There will be no housework this week, the house is going to be terrible by next monday. I can't wait till Sept is over!!



Learn something new everyday.

those girls are killing me... so full of love one minute.. slapping the hell out of me and kicking, spitting, pinching the next minute. Avery has a mouth on her like a teenager and there is no end in sight. She had a meltdown tonight saying she hates her life and all she wants to do is go out under a tree, lay on her blanket and read her bible!! Good idea anyway and it calmed her down. I have to find a place for the dog to stay for a couple years. Raven hits and kicks him so much he tries to bite her and I'm afraid he will catch her sometime. I feel like I've tried every kind of dicipline with her.. took away her silky today and her meltdown lasted about 2 minutes. At bedtime she asked for it and I reminded her I took it away for her naughty behavior. she said "oh" and rolled over!!!!!!!!!!
why can't I get this right?