Monday, October 15, 2018

My future........

When I started trying to get serious about weight loss earlier this year, I had a goal to lose 10-15 pounds and go back to the plastic surgeon in May to try to get approved for a breast reduction. Things changed. Something that surgeon said stuck with me. He said I should consider weight loss surgery first - told me about a newer procedure I'd never heard of. I've also NEVER even considered this type of surgery. I started researching the "sleeve" surgery online, joined a Facebook support group and began looking for a surgeon. I thought I'd check it out, see if its for me, not expecting to go any further.

When I first saw Dr Hung in June I think... he told me i'm a good candidate for this type of surgery and will check on insurance. Things like this never go my way so I didn't get too excited. I found out my insurance requirements and decided to give it a try. Since June I've been jumping through hoops- (not going to lie, kinda half ass-ed on some things) I started seeing some results in myself and learning some things. I'm down 22 pounds since Feburary.... what? when is the last time I've done that without trying really hard killing it at the gym and taking supplements? This whole thing is about lifestyle changes, not fad diets, not starving myself, not just working out but real every single day for the rest of my life changes.

When I met all the requirements for my insurance and it was time to submit for approval, I was still not getting my hopes up but was very encouraged about the whole process. Many positive vibes from my people and the thousands of online supporters has gotten me this far. Image result for what is vsg

One day on a Wednesday, I got the call from the surgeon saying "You're approved" I was still in disbelief! I began telling some of my closest people and now I'm counting down to my Sleeve Gastrectomy surgery on December 18th. I know there are a lot of concerns, questions and changes in my future but you guys, something drastic has to happen or I won't be around to see my kids grow up. Obesity is just as real a killer as cancer or diabetes. I'm excited for this journey! This is not a quick fix, not an overnight recovery, not "just a surgery" this is a lifestyle change and I've spent more than 7 months researching, talking and praying about it and Its finally going to happen. 

I will start sharing more details on my journey soon as well as before/after pictures. I really appreciate the support of my friends and family during this time!

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Size 14 what??

Long time no Blogs... Life has been getting in the way of my blogging. But that is how it goes right. I'm still working on this lifestyle.

So here is the progress:

 We have to have health screenings for our health insurance and I compared my results this year to last year at this time and I'm happy say I'm down 18 pounds, 3 inches on my waist and down 2.5 BMI points since last August. Although I just started this journey in late February with small changes. I feel pretty good. I know its slow but its better than the 18 pound gain I had the year before!

These are the goals I've been working on:
1. half-caff coffee
2. no liquids 30 mins before and after meals
3. No breads on sandwiches
4. Increased activity
5. French Fries... many many less than normal. Like I've eaten about 6 of them in as many weeks.

YAY! It's about small changes for me. I am not great at commitment so its hard for me to keep up with anything for long. This is exciting!

I'm still unsure where this journey will lead but the goal is HEALTHY! I'm really getting excited about living longer, more active and healthy lifestyle.

The small changes are working well for me right now.
My next BIG goal is to fit into these shorts.
They are size 14. yeah, guys. I'm for real..I put them on and they don't even go past my hips..
BUT I think they will look great on me! I think that would be about a 120 pound weight loss. Just putting that out here for the world to see me win loose or fail. I'm going to try! And whatever happens I know it will be okay!

Thursday, August 23, 2018

NO French fries!

Its the end of my 3 months of medical weight management- You may know that the last 6-8 weeks has been pretty rough so we decided to do another month! I am enjoying learning new ways to eat and moderation. Even with a few bumps.. (ok lets be real here... MOUNTAINS) Since the first of July - I'm so proud to say i'm down 20 pounds since I started changes in Feb. I know its not a lot but ya know.. I've lost 10 pounds in a week before and we all know how that goes. So I'm not giving up. I have little over 100 to go. 
I've been sick with sinus infection maybe for weeks.. been awful tired and many headache days. Finally called in to dr yesterday and started on some antibiotics, slept a LOT and woke up today feeling refreshed and little less dizzy! 
Thanks for sticking with me through this! 
I'm excited what the next month will bring. 

Some of my goals are:
1. get better at tracking food
2. Gym 2x week
3. cutting carbs in half.
4. cut daily caffeine in half.

Some things I've already concurred:
2. No Coffee Creamer 
3. half the amount of carbs/pasta/ & breads that I would normally eat. 
4. significant decrease in pain!  

Long way to go guys but I appreciate your support and prayers!! xoxo

Tuesday, July 10, 2018

Have I mentioned I love french fries? Yep I do. And I don't plan on cutting them out forever.. changing the quantity I eat yes, for sure. Going without them for a period of time while I train myself to eat = difficult!

Last few weeks has been interesting, I took a fabulous trip with my cousin Julie, Jared, Lynn & Liz. Lots of surprises along the way from Vegas to Disney and two trips to the ocean!! What a whirlwind. Also we ate. We ate a lot of food. I learned a few things on the trip. 1. I can't eat like that. My body hated me and my shoes got too tight from swelling. 2. I am really out of shape. It takes being in decent shape to do all the fun things that I desire! 3. I'm taking that trip again after 100 pound weight loss! And this time i'm bringing my kids and i'm going to keep up with them! Whew!! That is a lot to say out loud. Leaving me pretty vulnerable. When? I don't know for sure but I'm counting on it.

Seem like a pretty hefty goal? Well I'm a pretty hefty gal with a lot to lose so...I'm doing what I can to make it happen, when? I don't have that answer but y'all will know when it does because guaranteed I'll look different!

Here are a few favorite pics from my trip. I'm trying to get 600+ pictures narrowed down to maybe like 400.

trump tower

beach hair

this is where I belong

why was I born in the middle of         america? 

Thursday, June 21, 2018

To a new adventure - investment in my future.

Here is my first Blog post: I'm using the same blog I've always used because I don't need all kinds of blogs just hanging out on the web for no reason.. If you want to look at old posts feel free. This is going to be a safe place for me to start over - I may vent or cry or over eat - I'm just trying to make my life better and asking for people to come along side and pray for me during all of this. The destination is healthy not skinny. 
Here is my facebook post to kick it all off: 
My stomach turns as I typed and posted this so fast before I could chicken out. 

Ok Friends, I usually don't share a lot of big goals because - well fear of failure. I fail a lot as we all do- but I tend to personalize it and hate myself because of it. I am challenging myself to be transparent and humble in my efforts to lose weight. I'm starting a big journey. I don't want any diet advice, any pills or supplements - i'm working with a doctor, nutritionist and therapist. I'm not asking for advice.. but if you are willing to support me in my journey would you simply give me a "like". I'm going to be blogging about my journey and try not to bore anyone to death, but if you are on my team let me know so I can ask for your support and prayers and maybe some accountability. I'm fearful and teary writing this because I'm scared to fail.. again. But I know by the Grace of God I can do this. p.s. I'm going on a big vacation and I will not be eating perfect and I will be drinking a little too.. please don't judge. This didn't happen overnight and I will not lose weight overnight either. Its about behavior changes - long term. Baby steps and goal setting is where I am right now.

Friday, December 15, 2017

Raven was Brilliant

This morning on the way to school - Allie was saying her Mom threatened to send her to Boys Town. Avery and I explained to her what its like, since she has been to the one here in town. She explained how they make you do everything (chores) and ride their van to school etc.
I told her she needed to give her mom a break and stop acting out and being disrespectful. I explained how I felt as a Mom when both my girls were younger and Tom was always gone - I was overwhelmed and ready to give up.
Then: Raven was brilliant. Allie started talking about when her dad gets home from out of state (for four days) her Mom is going to tell him she was bad. She got her phone taken away too. Raven proceeded to tell her that maybe she can earn it back by being good the rest of the time. In her sweet yet authoritative voice she quietly said "Its your choice, you can turn around your attitude right now and when your Dad comes home your Mom could say - "she was naughty a couple times BUT turned it around and has been good the whole rest of the time" or you're Mom can say "Allie was naughty the whole time."  I praised Raven for putting into perspective what I've been trying to teach her.. she is listening!
What a gift to hear my child teaching another child the exact things I'm trying to teach her. Very proud mama moment!
Sometimes we find out what we are working so hard for, is happening right before our eyes. We have to appreciate and recognize it. Only by the Grace of God. I know He has a plan for us and this little conversation is just more proof.

Friday, September 1, 2017

A few updated pictures of the family! Raven 6th and A in 9th!

Learn something new everyday.

My future........

When I started trying to get serious about weight loss earlier this year, I had a goal to lose 10-15 pounds and go back to the plastic surge...